Heaven B-side Ye, Hell w/In

i can be so darn stoopid sometimes.......big time stoopid!!....y is it that ppl[like her] need to travel with their folks...or y is it that ppl[like me] need to travel with their so called friends....hmmm....tha's y da internet is so kewl.....when ye go inside a chat site....it's a given that anyone who crashes in wants to be friends with ye....or at least will try...or give it her/his bloodiest shot....ye just can't simply do that in da flesh...try it & ye risk being slapped....or being shouted at by relatives...in front of caring & not so caring ppl.....[right dickson?.....hihih]

' how much wasted time
will ye survive '
--- duncan sheik[w/o permission]

she wasn't a bomb....to da others she was just flesh...not beautiful at all... but would suffice under da circumstances....we're on a ship....in da middle of da china sea....no other recourse but to settle for what's there.....i was da 1st ...& da only one to notice her...it was da book....da fact that she was reading.. or da fact that i was too.....she didn't notice me...not me....not anyone else.. she's trapped....more like content...satisfied...in that li'l world....of hers...it must hev been full of colors....must hev been bright yet not hot.... but now i'll never know....what would i give to know?!!!!.......ah..

on da way back to manila...da same ship...da same companions...better circumstances....but....but.....we weren't s'posed to sail until da next morning.. we had to spend da night on da ship....w/o aircons...for it wasn't moving yet... it was hot...felt like my flabs were melting...that thought gave me a rise...i awoke to da clutter of feet....controlled noize...& who are dz stoopid morons... waking me up...when they know i won't be able to snooze again....with that kinda heat...it was 4 more hours b4 we are to set sail....stoopid morons....nope...they may hev been stupid enuff to create noize....am sure it wasn't their intention to pull me out of da sandman's grasp tho....then there she was....something in her...must be them specs....bring me down to my knees...am awake...it felt like am not....

now they notice her....they try to take what they can get....not flesh...but memories....flashes of memories....i learned one of my friends got into my ride too....tho.....it wasn't really my ride.....there is da one....not da one that is there........i watched her....eating noodles....reading a book.... playing cards....sleeping.....seating...standing......smiling... frowning.....drinking....breathing......even when i was sleeping i was watching......but am here now...& she's not....her world...however nice... however colorfull....will forever be locked....da key i saw.....but did not pluck....


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